“Let not our longing slay the appetite of our living.” - Jim Elliot
Not a day goes by when I am wondering where exactly God is leading me during this time of waiting. I had so many dreams for the future when I graduated from college. I was going to land an awesome job, work my way up the ladder, and be extremely successful in business. Instead, I sit here loathing the two part-time jobs I do have, knowing full well neither one of them is going to take me anywhere exciting.
One of my current reads happens to be Elizabeth George’s "Loving God with All Your Mind"
. I am only part-way through the book, but I keep going back to this one chapter - the one challenging me to think on what is true about my future. The world spits lies at us about our beauty, our self-worth, and about God’s plan (or perceived lack of) for our lives. I am at the front of the line when it comes to believing them. The brain is an extremely powerful organ, aiding and abetting my destruction if I give it permission.
. I am only part-way through the book, but I keep going back to this one chapter - the one challenging me to think on what is true about my future. The world spits lies at us about our beauty, our self-worth, and about God’s plan (or perceived lack of) for our lives. I am at the front of the line when it comes to believing them. The brain is an extremely powerful organ, aiding and abetting my destruction if I give it permission. - What if I am stuck working in an industry that is uninteresting and unfulfilling?
- What if I went to college for nothing?
- What if my life is completely defined by unsuccessfulness?
- What if I never make a difference?
What if......what if..........what if?
Then God.
The truth is - God has a plan far greater than my mind can imagine or dream of.
The truth is – God knows what He is doing when He says no to some jobs and wait for other opportunities.
The truth is – Psalm 139:16.
“All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
I do not want my longing for something that is either temporarily or permanently out of reach to define how I live my life right now. Yes, my life often feels like a 1,000 little puzzle pieces scattered about the table – some are put together while many of them lie alone. I do not even have the image on the box to help me. But my God knows the whole picture.
And that’s good enough for me.
4 comments:
I stumbled across your blog by accident (providentially?).
What a wonderful transparency of your faith in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
I am confident God will honor your faith and trust.
May God give you much eternal fruit.
This book for me has been SO HELPFUL too Kalyn....getting ready to write some on my blog...similar thoughts:-) thanks for sharing!
Terrific transparency. Sarah could have said that. Or Hannah. Or even Mary. You are in good company and make a great team.
I'm pondering an article on puzzles. If you beat me to it that's fine. One point would be: vision is useful, like the picture on the box which serves as our guide to putting the puzzle pieces together. But it can also be misleading. Sometimes, in God's providence, the picture on the box is not the picture being assembled.
@H Hamilton - Please write your puzzle article! I know you would do a much better job describing that analogy than I. :)
I like the thought about the picture on the box not necessarily being the actual puzzle. Gives me much to mull over....
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